'Ah..' I thought. 'It's so noisy outside.' Everyone's outside, I figured. Having lot's of fun and laughing loudly as they played a game. Why am I not with them? I wondered to myself as I sit here, on the floor with my back leaned against the wall in this messy female dorm room. I don't really understand - I should be out there in the lounge laughing along with them. But, why then am I not? Don't get me wrong - I don't find them repelling, neither am I anti-social. In fact, I'm pretty social. So social, that I would pine for human interaction with close friends for days on end. But - I guess, thinking about it now, that's probably the reason why I'm sitting here, alone, in this room. I'm selective. Very, selective. I think I'm being selfish - nitpicking who I want in my life. I think it's unfair (to others) that I'm acting this way. Then change, I hear you say. That's another thing. I don't feel like ch...